Let me try listing my major worries..
Are there any at work? how about my manager? She is pretty cool. But she gets a little nagging only during project deadlines, which are only a few times a fortnight and are never too stringent except requiring a couple of 15 hour work days.. so work is simply cool!!
coming to family.. great understanding Dad, he approves alteast 1 out of my 10 ideas.. loving mom and charming sisters... a great family indeed.
ok what about health? its great too.. except for the back ache.. but its only a few times a week.. anyway manageable with yoga or a nice trek up the hills.
So nothing.. Wow!! I seem to have no worries.. Yes.. nothing stifles my enthusiasm for life, at least never too long; one could find me in quite a jubilant mood most of the time.. it seems like there is a perennial source of optimism inside me that many a times awes people around me.
Childhood and family:
Childhood was the most special phase of my life as with anybody. I was a shy but very mischeivous kid. I will be everywhere... not a single moment passes without any action... At one moment I will be on tree tops, the next moment running over walls, and then hiding in the overhead tank for hours or fall in from my neighbours thatched roof. But when I am introduced to someone new I will try to show up as a calm and well disciplined kid. But despite my best efforts the person will readily recognize the hidden mischeif in my eyes. My mom will blame all of it only on the 7 1/2 year sani disha and will worship the god without fail every saturday. Nevertheless she loved me to the core, so much so that every single day I return from school and callout "Mummy" she would come running outside hug and kiss me as if we were separated for months. I dont know what she fed me but I had the most chubby cheeks then and I used to constantly involve in little mischiefs. Everyone in school, including girls and even teachers adored me. I think this love and attention is what I always crave for and like the most till date as manifested in all my acts.
As a child when I sometimes refuse to eat, my Mom did not come up with ghost stories to scare me into eating. She would try to make me understand the plight of scores of poor children for whom even one good meal a day is a luxury. It had a profound impact on me. Great thoughts and words of great people and not so great people struck chord with me and my value system got built around it. To give you an instance. A anna who used to work for my Dad had taken me to a temple. After we came out he asked me what I prayed. I told him I prayed for my and my families well being. He said I should rather pray for the well being of everyone and that, it will ensure my well being inturn.What a noble thought I liked it very much and that was the last time I prayed just for myself.
Academics:
Even as a child my Dad used to ingrain this in my head. "You should study well, join a good company which will send you to America for an all expenses paid trip". Like many other things that he tried, this too hardly got into my head. But I was hard working and good at Maths. I made the efforts and the encouragement provided at various levels helped me score well. I got to do Computer Science Engg in a college like Thiagarajar Madurai. I joined IT industry and the american dream became a reality. Never think the story ends there. While I am a toastmaster my Dad is a task master and he set the goals higher and prods me to do an MBA or go to work in a rich country and accumulate wealth. But I know that there is no end to this pursuit and that it should not be the primary goal.
Change:
The saying that had the most impact on me is Mahatma's "Be the change you want to see". I have changed a lot. I dont throw even a small bit of paper on the road. I try best not to flout any traffic rule. I dont buy pirated discs as I believe in the power of good cinema and want it to thrive. I relinquished what I relished once.. non-vegetarian food.. when I learnt that, world over rice fields are replaced in huge scales by fields producing fodder resulting in food price rise while hunger is still a reality. I strive not to bribe anyone even if it means spending days at government offices. Imagine this, I managed to change my bike registration from Karnataka to TN all by myself without a single rupee bribe to RTO. I will continue changing for the better and do my best to see the change around me.
During the completion of my schooling each of us were asked to write down our ambitions as is the practice of my class teacher. Even as early as that, this is what I wrote. "I want to become the winner of many a hearts". There is a constant urge in me that pushes me to do things to better the world I live in and the human life that I love. This keeps me going and this I think is the source of all the enthusiasm and optimism in my life.
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